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LONG
POEMS: LITTLE MOMMY OPEN THE
BOX
Sheep Shearing 1999)
Open The Box (1996)
SHORTER POEMS:
1994
Bubbles And Butterflies
Fire
Doll
Midas' Psalm
Parts
SHORT POEMS:
Art/For/Its/Own/End
Artichoke
Caterpillar
Boy
Cinderella
Circumferent
De
Dutzmen
For The Sake Of Argument
GREW A LITTLE branch from a tree
Icarus
On
Contempt
Prodigal Son
Ramblin' Rose
The Intermittent
Temple
The Library
Little Mommy
The World Is
Thou Little Spark
The New Spartoí
AFTERPSALMS
1
15
16
18
19
31
A Modern
Psalm
"Sheep Shearing," "Afterpsalms #1, #18" and "Midas' Psalm" were published
in Parchment Magazine
19841994
I
me
we
us
Ms
bi
PhD
gay
CIA
FBI
men
Her
She
HIV
s/he
blak
CSIS
nazi
AIDS
race
junta
queer
greed
dogma
class
canon
racist
fatist
wimmin
queens
gender
agenda
smoker
victim
fascist
lesbian
bulimic
context
studies
new-age
subtext
demonize
freudian
red meat
wellness
heteroxy
anorexic
paradigm
didactic
bisexual
feminist
herstory
same-sex
safe
-sex
misogyny
workshop
polemics
patronize
safer-sex
pride
day
date-rape
aggressor
he or she
semiotics
subverted
she or
he
empowered
genocidal
caregiver
privilege
vegetarian
fruitarian
pro-active
inner-city
pro-choice
gay rights
sex
worker
victimized
monolithic
white males
homeopathic
green
space
self-esteem
objectified
materialist
gender bias
discredited
progressive
paternalist
transsexual
maternalist
hermeneutic
share-power
bureaucrats
the disabled
middle class
heterosexual
human rights
sociological
transvestite
video artist
racist group
marginalized
the gun lobby
the fur trade
deconstructed
handy-capable
gay & lesbian
spousal abuse
power
sharing
the genocidal
illness model
vegetarianism
fruitarianism
animal rights
the gay games
gay pride day
gay pride week
gender-
neutral
breast implant
the gender gap
post-modernist
race relations
proceduralized
bio-degradable
wellness model
the privileged
women's
issues
sexual assault
animal testing
multinationals
age-appropriate
Judeo-Christian
animal products
the male agenda
socio/political
substance abuse
cultural worker
fundamentalists
the power elite
status of women
corporate greed
women's studies
new-age medicine
the
revisionists
the inner cities
abortion clinics
power structures
dead
white males
private property
the profit motive
same-sex benefits
employment equity
sexual harassment
deconstructionist
second-hand smoke
corporate America
sexual orientation
endangered species
the black
majority
the white majority
the black minority
the white minority
holistic medicines
indoor air quality
affirmative action
spiritual
identity
the new world order
human rights groups
non-western culture
conservation issues
the disenfranchised
mentally challenged
performance
artists
renewable resources
the military regime
the tobacco industry
eurocentric thinking
high-risk activities
the corporate agenda
unsubstantiated fact
advocacy advertising
new-age philosophies
homeopathic
medicine
has been discredited
wheel-chair athletes
animal rights groups
deeply coded message
conceptually invalid
politically incorrect
alternative sexuality
self-representational
autobiographical text
old-
guard politicians
high-minded principle
refreshing scepticism
violence
against women
gender differentiation
the cosmetics industry
heterosexual
orthodoxy
animal experimentation
negotiating difference
iconically
interesting
cultural appropriation
the difference disabled
gay & lesbian
bookstore
gender-neutral language
women's study programme
the white
establishment
substance abuse problem
the wilderness committee
age-
appropriate behavior
reproductive technologies
institutional co-optation
the
politics of inclusion
the politics of exclusion
Christian fundamentalists
water conservation issues
male spousal abuse studies
the crassest
commercialism
gender-neutral terminology
human rights infringements
energy
consumption & waste
green community designation
fresh fruits and
vegetables
the ruling military leaders
the market-driven economies
military/industrial complex
cross-cultural fertilization
the post-colonial
experience
buddies in bad times theatre
the violence of monocultures
shifting multiple identities
mutually-assured destruction
politically-correct
language
environment education officer
department of women's studies
privileged institutional hand
French structuralist critique
trademark cosmetic
indicators
present-day political concerns
free-standing abortion clinics
the
marginalized nexus of power
reticent to negotiate difference
art-historical
deconstructionist
post-modernist art & architecture
self-declared military
government
the multinational corporate agenda
the multinational corporate
empire
French post-Structuralist critique
CONSUMERS of MENTAL HEALTH PRODUCTS
(c) nineteen-ninety-four dan goorevitch
The world is
in spite its
seeming size
just a mural
And its wall
the mind, is
its mountain
to scale. If
she said, we
have courage
Then come up
dear, ascend
"Do you have
a baby", she
asks me, "in
your belly?"
"No", I say,
"Do you?" An
answer given
as surely as
swiftly.
"Is
it a girl or
a boy?" pose
I, to which:
"Her name is
Jane;--see?"
she says, as
she shows me
a wee crease
in her
navel
"Can you see
Jane's bum?"
See? it fits
in two parts
Hand and eye
Will, Vision
Patience and
your resolve
●
Wrapped cool
in black fur
in your hall
a first
home
this warming
mother scent
you remember
Soft nipples
in a
nightly
Dear desired
I have asked
patiently to
speak to you
but you
have
not answered
Goddess
then
A frost just
asked when a
lady walking
warm wrapped
in black fur
passed again
by this
wall
arresting an
overfull man
rounding the
corner by an
archway over
a flower bed
where a path
laid
by some
gardener who
was tendered
as he tended
to
passion's
moving thing
Proving thin
can grow fat
where joy in
labour joins
method to an
intent as it
leads
to the
order sought
conscious or
not. Does it
much matter?
Egg or bird?
The thing or
the thought?
Home is what
we whispered
as we lay by
warm hearths
where
gentle
speaking was
the order of
the air with
which breath
passed forth
returning to
our enriched
hearts where
our
loss was
gladly, that
one unwanted
thing
itself
we'd yearned
to be rid of
Overfull man
rounding the
corner by an
archway over
a flower bed
arrested
one
warm wrapped
lady walking
and wondered
who arrested
whom? Flower
strewn petal
arrangements
lay on black
narrow
berms
of earth. In
the electric
lighted lawn
grass
strips
and loam was
in them both
one filigree
fine
pattern
which petals
concurringly
did complete
Imagination?
Projection's
perceptions?
Structure of
reality? and
what then? a
solution? an
answer? plan
of assembly?
Instructions
Reading them
What a chore
A walk close
to this wall
could change
our thinking
Near a white
plaster wall
full-charged
with current
an entranced
trunk stands
balancing on
one
foot. On
the hairs of
the arms and
throughout a
whole
inward
frame I feel
gripped by a
gods buzzing
bristling
of
pure force--
Are we ready
for jolting?
Come on then
bring 'em on
those little
extra pieces
pierce amour
full-armored
rattling all
organs which
you
threw in
furtively of
an afternoon
but searched
to construct
in day again
after nights
vain, hoping
that when
at
midnight, at
its stroking
these pieces
extra pieces
may assemble
themselves a
fit model--a
flying thing
For all toys
and even joy
seems
in our
mortal realm
to just rust
dust, as did
flying's son
when the boy
fell aground
while called
forth from a
dream
to fly
an action to
which intent
grave itself
must
lead us
to a testing
toying model
Sighing sign
singing by
a
soaring wing
The open box
hollowed out
to fit these
photographic
images, long
cherished in
lonely dusks
where
violin
music called
from strings
recalled the
deep springs
from which a
memory draws
this antique
plastic wing
back
to hand
Vision, will
and patience
Your
resolve
to fashion a
remembrance:
an aeroplane
●
Part
Two 4
one birthday
and you will
find there a
swirling ice
cream freeze
beautiful an
image beheld
as it
begins
to melt into
an icy glaze
Last night's
kiss,
caress
at cock crow
flew, though
every pore's
mouth sang a
song its ear
perfect knew
It seems sad
perhaps it's
natural that
our rise and
shine to the
world's work
should spell
an exit from
Eden's realm
where a wall
broken piece
by piece was
dissolved in
our electric
charge as
it
wrought that
flesh change
exchange and
which ending
was replaced
by a need to
open the box
in the world
and organize
these pieces
12
character
per verse--a
little flute
trembling in
the throat a
Chord played
from a bough
bowed from a
bellied bole
aimed
upshot
to His cloud
from where a
golden misty
rain fell up
from a heart
The leaf let
fall up from
a mouth. Old
newspaper on
the pavement
twisting and
a paper bird
winding rose
Up! Up! came
calling when
man was then
youth and an
airplane sky
bloomed blue
and rose new
within him a
sighing song
you remember
See? it fits
Youth in
age
Age in youth
Lovers lying
loving truth
Man with God
Songs within
Seed in womb
we all begin
Babe in arms
Arms
embrace
All one Soul
face to face
Goddess
then
who taught a
bough-broken
baby's swing
support when
cut
could be
an ell stick
Hollowed out
the template
being you-
-a
little flute
Also the apt
divining rod
be fashioned
attracting a
water-wooden
source to it
One daughter
then you are
as childless
the pregnant
messenger to
deliver seed
To childless
men you tell
such arts as
men may
need
to till them
all men as a
crop to soar
into blood's
fertile core
so that in a
drear moment
a word would
chime
as the
phrase least
remembered--
Note next to
one unheeded
The one lost
Goodbye then
Simple words
remembered--
Goodbye kiss
The deed our
intention to
return to us
from I and I
The pleasure
as you liked
to say--that
anticipation
of cherished
moments I am
slow to know
as
your mind
all mornings
a hot coffee
cup unbrewed
You
are best
latest, long
day followed
in whistling
conversation
as I've seen
you there at
fence picket
by bird cage
a
sound come
from between
your teeth--
chirping, in
a sweet tone
You stood up
rose tip toe
to sew songs
to the wings
of songbirds
What then is
our rankling
reticence--a
wrangling in
defense that
marries with
an ill habit
of regret, O
solitude out
of which the
soul seeks a
door--desire
the thin key
to unlock it
Desperate of
acts! You're
spore; blown
alone a
leaf
in the drift
where vacuum
sucks, hurls
spiraling--a
spar-stem
in
gusts toward
an avoidance
A bitterness
The
taste an
unlikely one
to better us
marring what
beauty, sent
to us from a
red hot Mars
and O, Venus
a warming of
breath's lip
slid-slipped
breast's tip
across chest
glided
crush
dust, O dust
without love
The gas tank
an
affection
machine near
empty desert
sands scrape
a bared
soul
Two hands at
a waist belt
buckle flash
trapped dark
excitement a
disgust with
horror mixed
and pleasure
So she stood
next morning
at the glass
an old dress
hanging from
a rusty wire
The holes of
her
bathrobe
a spider web
masking such
odd exulting
secret power
Betrayed, he
you betrayed
trusting not
this
passion
fleeing from
fleet Apollo
following at
flight speed
clumsily, in
song's ardor
And your ear
a split limb
concealed in
a dark arbor
Praying thus
for a kindly
father's aid
a frightened
quaking form
clung rooted
forever cast
as the waxen
green laurel
●
Here our way
forks from a
forest floor
Whitest this
a lily grows
under acorns
Needles
fall
from spruces
Cone at pine
tip branched
here topples
Seeks a soil
Sends a root
shoot to sky
branching in
one filigree
air
and tree
Scantling in
half-light--
border light
separateness
Sweetness us
the lips
are
still tingle
tart and the
fingertip to
fingertip to
squeeze; the
ten fingered
temple built
of two hands
Up above the
wood rafters
The two beer
on the table
Tingling lip
still ghosts
With them we
will play to
UP AND down CIRCUMFERENT PRODIGAL SON
grey
boughs
caterpillar
boy zigzags
up sidewalk
parkin'
lot
is, already
in his mind
a butterfly
A finger pad
pressed soft
encompassing
a sand grain
Swell of the
belly and
an
earth curves
away from an
arm's hollow
a shoulder's
bump.
Hid by
grass blades
a valley. To
the river in
sparkle, dew
the new moon
O, the stars
the lips the
sun shine on
fertile
land
Circumferent
line, in dot
and dash our
circled
life
THE BUT
AIR THE
WAS
SEA
HIS WAS
JOY LOW
AND HOT
THE WAX
MAP WAS
FOR HIS
THE WOE
BOY AND
AND HIS
HOT
SIN
SUN WAS
WAS HIS
HIS OWN
AIM WAY
I, returning
from flights
and railroad
compartments
dark tunnels
drawn blinds
making
music
from nothing
--iron wheel
screaming
on
a steel rail
•
A cloud flew
and
profound
figures grew
from nothing
•
Returning, I
high above a
worsted coat
Green
tinted
tar-pit of a
Black Forest
smoke-plumed
as if a huge
building had
been brought
to its knees
•
Light--these
small points
Down below's
the Tel-Aviv
hill of life
Crash, crash
by all means
Dead,
alive:
•
•
•
I've arrived
MIDAS' PSALM
The tower of
counted coin
the wheat of
my granaries
A paved road
for the cart
and the oxen
provided for
My men fitly
fed, attired
civil-minded
and
mannered
●
Olive groves
in abundance
the orchards
fig and plum
Meat, fleece
of the lambs
Hecatombs of
fatted boars
A black bull
for the gods
Pyres
raised
to the ether
●
Lush forests
yield
timber
my shipyards
all business
Dawn to dusk
my
potteries
the painters
well-trained
Black beasts
wrestle
with
Heracles, in
red outlines
●
And my ships
bearing gold
to pay hands
--all skills
The
guilds a
philanthropy
by every man
who advances
the
pregnant
contour, hue
the craft of
his ancestor
●
And I savour
rich texture
of both clay
and
tapestry
Spice of the
foreign land
Cinnabar for
a full
table
Exotic cloth
for the wife
Peace--in an
orderly
life
●
And my slave
is well-paid
his work not
too exacting
mind or body
not punished
if
compliant
with the law
In every way
I am liberal
and
civility
is my temper
●
And twilight
brings larks
to my garden
and vineyard
My forsythia
fresh
yellow
Lilacs bloom
by the roses
Clematis and
ivy climb
up
green crotch
of the trees
●
My
starlings
flit & flirt
coquettes to
my eye, sore
bent
over my
many ledgers
Line by line
the dull ink
this
concern
and that one
Deluge after
drought, yet
●
My daughters
in fine wool
my sons hale
and
handsome
The children
of my babies
the clenched
little
fists
red-faced in
ornate tears
laughing are
pure
delight
●
These are my
soil, my air
root, branch
shoot, bloom
quick growth
of my summer
wool
blanket
to my winter
The arteries
of my health
and the
pump
of my wealth
●
These hew my
soul's
shape
No ink shows
it in tables
yet an order
built up
and
in every way
sustained by
the tower of
counted coin
the wheat of
my granaries
●
Float,
float
up to heaven
Midas's pure
sprung psalm
Holy
Olympus
on its mount
down-clouded
azure, white
but its
gods
heard "gold"
and "me" and
nothing else
ART FIRE DOLL Chaff may scoff as well as fly— Deaf themselves, their
congregation Experience alone his
mother, And until then, no inch, nor
muscle My dwelling has a simple charm— I love the hammer-stone poised above
FOR
ITS
OWN
END
WON
THE
DAY
AND
JOY
NOT
WOE
WAS
ITS
AIM
Hate laws
hide what
lazy dumb
talk does
Bury Jews
Andy bury
most deep
slow mind
Bomb drop
doll city
same diff
talk
show
Andy says
Only look
Bomb sent
will kill
what
ever
some hate
stop bomb
come over
that very
same pond
That made
life cost
most mean
that side
this
side
Only just
hear this
Jews were
same side
fond rest
note from
fair song
With mark
mark well
with mark
note sent
from song
soul from
body took
bone took
from skin
bone bust
into dust
Call
them
doll then
bury them
Call them
then
doll
only doll
Your word
from this
care
bear
side your
fake face
dumb care
your left
wing mask
will make
your debt
list long
Your sons
push next
sons hard
make good
that bill
Same Nazi
work plan
Till gold
fill from
dead open
food hole
make that
then your
glad days
debt paid
Call that
your song
sick bird
Coil into
your soil
your soul
made dirt
Lucky man who shuns the brazen
Counsel of spineless
cynics
Takes delight in light, the law
That rules by day and night,
Breathing an endless meditation:
A tree that drinks a river,
Pushing out its
fruit in season:
Unwithering green: a branching body
Of leaves that richly
shelters.
I'm wise to their worldly wisdom—
A
web wove tight with gaping holes:
The schizoid spider's information
Wrapped about
a hollow nothing:
A secret they shout to the deaf.
Nods agreement, sleep, death.
Who in rain though sheltered,
Beholds a sun-drenched vista.
His certain song's unaltered
By plots and twisted chatter,
Of those who huddle
in baths:
Soggy newsprint paper dolls
Changing with changeless
headlines.
His tune isn't made
to fit but measure:
Silent about what he doesn't
know,
Singing aloud what he understands
He recognizes his brother's walk—
Signal fire from distant mountain, says:
"Pay me when you can," meaning
Not to break the natural pride.
Silent his contempt for the
nihilist,
Ringing his praise for the constant,
He gives his neighbour
his petty reproach
And takes the full-blown victory
Of being unmoved, his
eye directed
Before his feet by heart commanded
Twitches
Till he strides.
Exotic delights are rented
grief.
I'd rather drink sand than cut my tongue
On fashionable designer-cups,
On bloody made-up mannequins!
The size of my lot doesn't
matter—
I've said it before; I'll say it again:
Within the world of the shuttered
pearl
Is a grain of sand that grows,
Every layer embracing the whole.
Every line has fallen in its place—
I have been left perfection;
The heart that beats within the heart
Counsels, instructs as it opens
Before me
a constant way.
The right is my right and
all my rights—
A wall that keeps me unmoved and moving;
For this and of this I sing rejoicing:
My lot is
perfect peace;
Neither can I fall nor stumble.
Singing a mountain
switchback,
The staffs of my songsheet
Are piton and rope:—song
Of the blind
who sees inwardly ,
Tottering on the roof of bliss.
The broken rock on which I
stand: the cleaving stone
That releases a brightness; the breath that catches:
The rock on which I stand sustained.
Strength in the crystal, the black and
white speckle,
Strength in the concrete where I crouch and strain,
Strength in
the back, to cleave the stone,
Strength in the stone, by which to cleave.
Broken as I was in superfluous pieces,
The broken though brightened voice that
sings
Found the critical ear whose tuning
Fork shook Earth til it reeled and
split,
Spit white flame and ash from the depths,
Billowing smoke above,
below,
Black so black it touched the brain-pan,
Touched as a light on the skin of
the iris.
Flame, intense, roared in the gist of it,
Thunder claps that
splintered lightning
To blood red coals and fiery stone
Arrows cut the cords that
bound me.
And I saw to the worn-down channels of the sea,
The foundation-
stones of the world as I flew,
Wrapped in the song, the stone: that ear
That
hears and delights in song:
Loyal to the loyal, blameless to the blameless,
Pure to the pure, perverse to the crooked:
The light of my lamp, the steel in my
sword,
The shield on my arm, the song in my mouth:
The rock, the bedrock
itself of my self,
The rock that spreads beyond my stride;
The rock in my arm to
bend iron bows,
The rock in my feet that turned them to wings
To soar the
scope of all space to set me
High on the broad-rimmed ledge, eclipsing
The dust
and scum beneath me, the mire
And filth in the drains who hate me
The
brains that bait me, who think in committee,
Calling for help with a sanitized prayer,
to a god
When useful, a devil when not. Failing that,
A tyrant, eunuch, mob.
I ground them fine like coffee beans
And poured the scalding water; drip
By precious drip they dissolved.
(I have a plastic Rubbermaid for mud.)
Once I sat beneath them and cringed;
They turned me away and the world
Kept turning. Now the rock is revolved,
My resolve, and now they come,
Tin cups for tinkles.
The rock lives; its many layers
Protecting the single
seed that grows
Outward: an onion: a hand that delivered
A crop of seed set
deep in the loam,
A crop of stars, thrown in the void
Grown so close and tightly
together
(The reed-thin stalks swaying together)
My seeds of dust! broken
into bloom!
Tight as the speckled rock, broken:
The breath, the voice, caught,
released
Again and again in the heart of the stone.
19
White puffs and blue above
and below me
a tight-worsted forest
of
wool, the colour
is asphalt, reflecting
green tinge. Night
and the lights
below me. A filigree
of song: squeaks
of the wheels as they
touch down. In
bed
comes rest. Within rest
comes the sun, the son,
the young lover to his
bride
with calves of iron joy.
What is perfectly sure
revives as it
simplifies.
In this wise what is right and pure
rejoices and clarifies
all
that it commands.
What is clean and true
is what cuts what's wanted
from that which is possible;
a man's days are numbered,
his body, mortal:
fear
closes the circle,
fits the ring,
enduring and profound,
leads to
the honeycomb,
the song that's spun
in threads of gold.
I might warn
myself
not to make presumptions here.
I should be aware
that the stair I
climb goes up
and down. I cling, I fear, too much
and tear the flowing
gown, expect
too much that it warn me.
I a single lump of clay
Thrown on the wheel
Am broken now
And
the doctor of philosophy
With nippled hat and dusty shirt
Digs the broken buried
shard
Senseless to all but he and his kin
Who know the language of broken
things
That whisper impatient reunions
And those who broke me
Who
whispered about me
Lie still their cacophony
Unchanged with the ages:
Empty vessels where voices bounced
And ricocheted.
From a fortress
unnamed but never unmanned,
Through a living wall of stone,
My voice passed and
was heard;
Shut within walls
Where voices strive and clash
I heard a
simple music
That set my toe to spring and fall
In tender steps on vast
And even floors
Where sun shone
And warmed the urn,
Exciting the air
within
To a gentle stirring
Effortless song,
At one with breath at
last.
Here he
comes—
old piston-legs—
Thighs and calves
bruised by bloody pulp.
Grape, gripe, bitter seed
sink in carnal red—look!
Footprints rise from the
polished lake
where all our names are written!
Shrinking ruby
footprint-puddles
Yet from each a thousand spring,
Shouting in quickening
cadences,
Wailing and rejoicing at once!
They climb to where the air is
thin
but blood is thickest—
They have no need of meat but drink
—tens
of thousands to a single beat,
Churning in the muffled thicket—
A
distant thudding etching fine
lines of blood in slate.
She kneels
And
the black pleats float.
She sits—
My heart a sinking boat.
She
stands
And stretches—oh—the flirt!
Walks on
—tugging at the corner of
her skirt!
Artichoke, artichoke:
Let me pluck your leaves!
The tenderest flesh
at the tip of each!
Ah—the fur—and here beneath
What pleasures lie in store!
In the artichoke—
Her secret core!
GREW A little branch from a tree
you was there and so was me
you me and the
tree maked three
then comed our tiny bay-be
You caress the bubble but it
doesn't burst. And as it passes out
there's a world in there And your
feet leave the ground. Cinderella
Once upon a time, when the river Warta In the blind poet's
closet,
You squeeze it. It cannot burst. So you eat it
Not some New York skyline with snowflakes
But a
man, yourself, as you should have been.
He is taller than you, stronger than
you,
He is warmer, more generous, more kind
He has a keener intellect, a
finer humour
He laughs at himself and accepts his foibles.
He is the you
you should've been but aren't
So you flush him. But he finds his way out
Of
the pipes and into the river where he bubbles up
With millions of other bubbles
he heads for the falls.
He falls and stays intact. He wanders up and down
And through all the earth, this homunculus who will outlast you,
Capable of
every thing but one:
He cannot free himself from the bubble.
You stand in
your living room and a butterfly
Puts his wings between your fingertips
At first you laugh but, as your head passes through the
ceiling
And you wonder if you're air or plaster, awake or asleep
You fear
to let go but you're curious to go on.
You rise up above the clouds, above the
stars even
To the untouched waters over heaven
And you find yourself in a
pink spiral,
A tunnel. How strange. Above the space, you thought
There
would be more and more space, ever more freedom
But it's a tunnel, and it's
narrowing.
The tunnel gets dark and you're afraid to let go
So many miles
from home and then you smell the stink.
The stench is appalling but you think it
will pass.
It gets worse. You can't let go now. You can only hope
Things
will get better. But it gets worse. And it gets hot.
Surely it can't last and if
I let go I'll die here
In this heat and this stink, alone. At least I have
Someone with me, the butterfly. But who is this butterfly?
It put
its wing between my fingers. It wanted to take me here!
But I have
nothing else and fear to die alone.
So you hold on. The heat gets more intense.
It is searing
And then it gets twice as hot. You can't breathe.
Now it's so
hot it's beyond heat. You feel ice cold.
The butterfly is letting you down into a
burning lake.
The lake is silver, like mercury. Like a volcano
It bubbles.
Perfectly round solid bubbles and you see
Either reflected on the outside or
inside it (you cannot tell)
A man resting peacefully, each under his own fig tree.
He drops you.
You feel your feet hit something solid, your knees
buckle
And instinct makes you reach with both hands to break the fall.
You
let go of the butterfly.
Your
living room. You know, for the first time
The fear and love of God.
To
Grazina
ran through the town of
Częstochowa
a woman stood on the tips of her toes
alone in a vast room
meticulously arranging her medical supplies.
There are things one remembers
from childhood—
a picture of a Scotch Terrier (on a writing pad),
a yellow-haired
girl sweeping a hearth (in a book),
or (a photograph): a toddler (me) pulling a violin
out of a tin can—
more real than what we say actually happened
and so it was that, reaching above the dialysis machine,
silence was her
accompanist, and she, rising and falling
between moon and undertow, turning in her
banks,
over rocks, measure after measure—
Listen you—
You in the
powder blue—
Cinderella, laughing,
bringing the waters of the Warta
here
intact from Częstochowa,
Dei gratia nova!
turning "de Bodum"
round in the mouth.
Café
tables, lightly waxed
pine edges; the upright nipple
of the maiden-mother.
"Many hands buffed the stone"
spoke ivory, the tongue's lustra
—the gold
-walled city.
"Hollandt Mars and its canals":
Loam, asphalt-
black, de bodum:
a Dutz cricket-pitz.
On de beetz, an escarpment:
An inch and a half of sand,
wave-
curled, polissed
pearl, silver
sweeps
de pidzen-tails
on de Kobblstonss.
And Spartan Marinas mused,
restoring, almost,
a
sort of
Norsemanly sense of normalcy:—
"The first smoke of the day's the
toughest—
But you've got to get through it!"
For the sake of argument let's say you have no identity.
For the sake of
argument let's say you're an image
you make and remake, a lump of clay, thrown on a
wheel,
hollowed out as it rises until its walls, too brittle,
crumble, or if not,
sustain an astounding grace
but disappoint after the glazing, or if not, enthrall,
delight and excite until you drop it in your reverie.
Let's say, for the sake
of argument, that you are a masterpiece
sitting in the British Museum until, like
Sumer, like Egypt,
your museums are destroyed and you,
like all the masterpieces
that surround you,
are desecrated by barbarian hordes who, living in poverty,
watching your television shows, their envy and malice
feeding their power and
violence, put an end to you.
Let's say, for the sake of argument
you are an
insect caught in amber
and it is only the wind that seems
to make your dry limbs
shudder.
The parts of a busted doll
strewn on a table
no longer
strain to integrate the greater self.
The makers who passionately made her
parts
no longer feel the urge to dash her brains
against the nearest wall but,
with shaking hands
Ascend with the patient corpse
through skylight to
midnight's electric storm, chanting:
"Hamelech! Imam! Shanti! Sweet Jesus!"
 
; •
There
is a picture of poor mad Ivan
holding his broken son, the eyes
bulging,
searching, vacant...
 
; •
Gilt frames the edges of the family photograph.
Wake
up at seven—the alarm clock will help you
to glue the shattered shards to make a
cup
of coffee
Dash out the house
the little plastic pieces
trailing in your train.
Some get trapped in the door and
weeping like a
lost child
roam the house alone to find
a tiny purple flower on the
nervosa,
showers of wicker; a solid orange column
breaking between blue
windows.
A latch, painted in place,
amazingly works
like a real
object,
the doorknob an image
is solidly felt
and really turns
The image is dim.
An old man.
Walking in a daze.
Though
Ramblin' Rose
played twice
as dust
behind car
and sun
and sand's
ribs
under lake
and bubbles rose
dragging up
my father's hair
a whitened body, it
seems
now that
all
the way
to
the beach
that day
the rhapsody was
so
that
even
now
it
goes:
How I love you
(so it goes
How I want you
heaven knows—
Who can cling to
a
ramblin' rose?
And there
was a man in Maon... shearing his sheep in Carmel....
the name of the man was Nabal;
...his wife [,] Abigail;....
And David heard...[and] sent out ten young men,...
 
;
&
nbsp; &n
bsp; &nb
sp; 1 Samuel 5:1-5
Who is David? Who is the son of Jesse?
 
;
1 Samuel 25:10
Naked they skit as the shears quit their clack.
Heads tack, haunches bound,
seeking open turf.
Quake, shake, wash their faces in wind.
Kick, jump, come
ground.
Strip by strip, fleeces mount.
Women card—discard the skimpy
strands,
Draw the long to loom (short to soften straw)—
And cook: we wolves get
our lamb. Wine
to wash down the dust, the fleece, the grease. Just then,
ten come
on, dripping respect.
Their master, they call him, begs mutton.
Mutton I have. Master none.
He has no master—no mutton but messengers
(Messengers mean, and like,
whether fed or unfed, to grow muttonous)
I like
'em lean—keep what they can
eat what they shear
shear what they keep
keep what I let
(mutton on mutton's monotonous.)
Though ravenous, they
bear unbloodied paws,
profess friendship and... protection. "Peace
"be with you,"
they say and: Peace attend you," and
"May peace follow peace into peace and
"May we please have a piece of your piece please?"
I set my goblet down.
My shearers' faces rose—
a touch of mauve
from the sandstone—crimson bits
from accidental nicks
(Wooly black hair with straight white teeth)
"Protection?" I ask, turning back to the ten,
"From what?" "From who?"
"Well... from—from bears, from... lions, from"
"My shepherds?"
When
faces flush, men start to sink, but
pink back to white it's a hell of a stink!
Laughter, like water, it tempers the tip.
Eyes open shut,
the last thing that happens is
What happens?—I wake, head
heavy, a stone chest. Her eyes
open
and narrow in turns,
 
;glint as they tug invisible strings
tied to the corners
of her half open mouth, which jerk
their confessions in concert.
I
grow wool on my chest; on my back
straw
pricks the
ball. Homespun:
Home. Unspun.
A long yarn's a short
tale! (unwoven)
A shawl, lighter than fleece, floats to my face—I can't
breathe—it smells of
Abigail
...now let thine enemies, and they that seek evil to my lord be as Nabal.
 
;
1 Samuel 25: 26
My husband
owned all this
three thousand head of sheep, a thousand goats
All that 'til
he showed up,
wanting to be fed—him and his men.
Protected them, my servant
said,
while they remained 'conversant'
whatever that means
Well, my
husband—the name means "oaf," not "stupid."
Did his shepherds go hungry?
"Every budding blade a renegade!" he muttered,
"Every master his whetstone!"
But these were no lamblings.
Five hundred. At least. Unarmed.
For the
present.
So I saddled, sent fare and followed.
In good time. They
were striding.
But he that strode in front—I
caught something in his face—
it
burned like a wisp too close to the sun. Decisive—
that impressed me—the
quickness of his change of mood,
the sharpness of his perception.
I
approached as one befitting my station.
He lifted me.
How wrong it is to
shed blood he said and I
had spared him the
deed—I
was clever, he said
as his lower eye scanned my lower lids
where wetness was the stone
he honed his lids upon which rose
and in the upper
chamber saw
my husband stagger, fall,
ask as I rose, floating
my eyes
gleaming my heart gloating
for the love of an uncrowned king.
It took ten
days or so it felt for the fool to die and then
as our eyes promised
came the
proposal I expected.
Modesty demanded a modest answer:
"I?" I
asked: "I" ,the wife of David?"
I think I said
something like
I wasn't fit to wash his feet as I grabbed my
cloak. My
shawl
caught a splinter at the door frame.
I looked back.
A
farm's a son's—a kingdom
belongs to an heir
(he who draws the deepest breath)
A wife's the one who holds it best.
The day was close—I played the
wind:
caught and held the folds of the fabric
and
let it hang
Go up in peace to thine own house; see, I have harkened
to thy voice and I have accepted thy person. Stars
hone themselves on the strop of a scent. Kerchief
floats catching the tip of a crescent moon I count: Adam dust nothing
to the deep, floating on the surface of a scent. A new wife! &nbs
p;  
; "You have not only hit the Nail on the Head,
thir,
 
;
1 Samuel
25:35
Abram and Adam were my fathers
Before that
dust
Before that nothing:
the deep: endless descent.
Light, a
day
Night, we count,
recount the gain.
The slingshot, the
sword:
a giant's head on a pike—
that got me the weal
of men—spokes afire
spanning a still small voice
Steppe and rise, pitch and plain:
land the
people possess
—creases in the palm—
possess these people.
She
came as I pressed up the path
armed with providence, the eyes providing.
She was loam, fertile,
set in the circle for ploughing.
In her master's
house
a field unsown, untilled.
She knew it
and knew that I
knew.
Ten days later she was mine.
I
never
 
; ask
 
;
how
(my little joke) is
a new life.
 
;
Day gains.
 
;
N
ight gains.
 
;
&
nbsp; Dust I will soon enough.
 
;
T
oday, God willing,
 
;
&
nbsp; the clay:
 
;
&
nbsp; The palm, its finger,
 
;
&
nbsp; the wheel, its spoke,
 
;
B
urning branch, root and trunk entwined.
 
;
And now to rest.
 
; And dream
"Nailed the Chritht to the Croth,
"Crothed the great Divide,
"Divided
Day from Night
"You have plathed your very Finger Thomath
"Right inthide
the very Chrithtwound
"And planted in itth Midtht the Theed
"From which the Tree,
rithing,
"Thtill thwellth in the thame Moitht Earth
"From which Man
himthelf wath Formed,
"Which Form ith the very Garden itthelf
"Of Paradithe: the
Timeleth Prethent."
THOU LITTLE SPARK,
Separate by glass
From larger compartments
Of
combustible experience:
Take thou this candle in the dark
And open thy
mind.